real

What I Say:

Open your eyes. Stop being oblivious. Can’t you see!

I’m incapable of loving someone. I don’t want to feel. I’m okay with being emotionless.

Because then I never care. I don’t need to feel pain. So don’t love me. Let me be incapable of being loved.

I don’t want your love.

I’m perfectly capable of being alone. I’m happy this way!

I don’t need anyone!

What I Know:

I’m so scared….

I don’t know how to act when someone actually loves me. I just don’t understand. So many people have hurt me and used me.

So I find it easier to push people away because I don’t wanna hurt anymore…..I don’t wanna care. Because when you are happy it can be taken away.

And I don’t want you to be taken away.

So please don’t love me, because I won’t know how to react to it.

I never will understand how someone could love someone like me.

I’m nothing special. I’m only the last resort.