I live a life full of “what if’s”

I use them to protect myself

So I don’t become a fool

At least not again 

They block me from letting anyone in

In case that person has wrong intentions

But I have a flaw

They don’t allow me to let anyone in at all

Even when they have good intentions

I can be at my happiest with someone

And then a “what if” will pop into my head

To remind me to not get to close

To remind me to pull away

To remind me to not get hurt 

I don’t know a life without “what if’s”

And I couldn’t imagine one without them

Where I don’t end up broken all over again