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You don’t have to tell me. But why am I in love with you? I’m in love with you. Every time I look at you I see this guy who was there for me when I needed someone the most, I see this guy who was my shoulder to cry on when I barely knew him. I saw a guy who saved me from myself when I was shutting down from everyone, who treated me like I wasn’t some sob story. I saw this guy who showed me the way I deserve to be treated and who made me feel a way I never had before. I saw someone who made me laugh, by doing nothing, he just made me laugh and smile by being himself. I see someone who never gives me a dull moment and who makes me feel homesick when I’m away from him. I see someone who is so insanely respectful, and this guy who always keeps positivity by his side. I see someone who is determined and who always finds a way, I see someone who understands me and loves me for who I am. I see this guy who makes me feel so beautiful and so special. I see this guy that I hate fighting with because it breaks my heart being upset with you, I see this guy who I will forgive for quite possibly anything, even though it’s unhealthy, because I’m so in love that I’d never want to risk losing you. And I feel like I could keep on going and going on and on about what I see when I look at you that made me fall in love with you.

-a message I sent to my now ex when he couldn’t support why he fell in love with me, it’s cause he never did