You’ve got me so fucked up
It’s not that I don’t know what love is
Trust me I know
But I don’t know how to feel it again
I don’t know if I want to feel it again
I don’t know if I can handle it
Or if I’m capable
Or if you can make me feel that sort of way
You don’t just feel that way with anyone
And trying to imagine better
It seems impossible sometimes
I’m still not ready
I’m too scared
I’m holding onto something toxic
Onto something that’s not realistic
I’m not ready
And I’m so sorry